James Schuyler
I went to his sixty-sixth birthday
dinner: sixteen years ago this past
November. I remember that it was at
Chelsea Central (his favorite restaurant:
great steaks) on 10th Avenue, and
that Ashbery was there, and a few
others, including Joe, impeccably
dressed and gracious, who picked up
what must have been (I thought
at the time) an exorbitant bill.
I remember him saying more than
once, “Joe always picks up the bill,”
then smiling a slightly wicked smile.
Sitting with him (those excruciating
silences!) in his room at the Chelsea,
my eyes would wander from his book-
shelves (The Portrait of a Lady stood out)
to the pan of water on the radiator
to the records strewn on the floor
to some scraggly plants (ivy? herbs?)
in ceramic pots at the base of the French
doors that opened to the balcony and
balustrade and sound of traffic on 23rd
Street six floors below. He read me
“White Boat, Blue Boat” shortly after he
wrote it, and a poem about Brook Benton
singing “Rainy Night in Georgia” that
didn’t make it into his Last Poems, though
I remember thinking it beautiful. He
complained, in a letter to Tom, about
how much I smoked, and how emotional
I’d get during movies: he must have been
referring to Field of Dreams (he had a yen
for Kevin Costner). When he took me
to see L'Atalante, a film he loved, I was
bored. Once, we took the subway (he
hadn’t ridden it in years) to the Frick;
I remember admiring Romney’s Lady
Hamilton. It hurt that he didn’t invite
me to the dinner after his Dia reading
or to the reception after his reading at the
92nd Street Y, though he did, at the latter,
read “Mood Indigo,” dedicated to me.
When he said my name from the stage,
Joan and Eileen, sitting to my left, turned
and stared at me; frozen by the enormity
of the moment, I couldn’t look back.
When he came to a reading I gave at
St. Mark’s, Raymond impressed upon
me what an honor it was: Jimmy didn’t
go to many poetry readings. What else
is there to say? That when I visited him
at St. Vincent’s the day before he died
Darragh said, “He likes to hear gossip.”
So I said, “Eileen and I are talking again.”
That at his funeral I sat alone (Ira couldn’t
come); that that was the loneliest feeling
in the world. That afterwards Doug said
“You look so sad.” How should I have
looked, Doug! And that a year after he
died, I dreamt I saw him in the lobby of
the Chelsea Hotel. He was wearing a
hospital shift and seemed to have no
muscle control over his face—like in inten-
sive care after his stroke. He saw me
and said, “It’s nice to see some familiar
faces.” I approached him, but he
disappeared.
David Trinidad, "James Schuyler" from The Late Show, published by Turtle Point Press. Copyright © 2007 by David Trinidad. Reprinted by permission of David Trinidad.
Source:
The Late Show
(Turtle Point Press, 2007)
